Before It’s Time

Ever have an “oh no” moment, like being away from home and closing the car door and seeing keys hanging in the ignition? It’s embarrassing, maddening, but not that big a deal once the locksmith comes to collect a fee for retrieving the keys w/o having to break the window.

Not long ago, I was about to recline on the couch about an hour after having kicked off an algorithm to format a hard disk that was giving me trouble. For some strange reason, I replayed the boot sequence and only two disks where there. Yep, “oh no”, I was zeroing out my backup disk. Almost 10 years of data, now inaccessible, I spent a week beating myself up and lamenting my inexplicable stupidity.

After having a new disk installed, and several recovery passes at each of the impacted drives, I conceded – time to suck it up, and start over. Fortunately, I’d squirreled lots of songs on CDs and sites where I could recover tracks and begin rebuilding my catalog.

Soon thereafter it dawned on me that my life wasn’t all that impacted by the data loss, and began to think, besides the music/songs I create/write, what will I leave behind? A few instruments, some books, a few bucks, but nothing with meaning that depicts our family, and extended families.

For a few months I’ve grappled with getting back into writing, starting with a weekly post (yep, I know nobody reads this stuff) as well as new songs, etc. I’ve also been exploring the framework and perspective for writing memoirs. This morning I read an essay by William Zinsser titled “How to Write a Memoir“, in which Zinsser shares points on how to find the right voice, about simplicity, perhaps most importantly, the story of how his father wrote, bound and distributed two family histories. In doing so, Zinsser’s father gave the gift of memories, facts and emotional details about his growing up, married life and who meant what to him.

The question now is, “do I have the courage to do the same”? To not only write the memoir(s) but do so before it’s time to take my final breath? To do so as an act of love for my family, as well as a means of coming to terms with my own life. Who knows, there might be a few songs that come out of the process, but most importantly, our children and theirs would have these memories to [hopefully] cherish.

Time Away

A panicked cry, a frozen moment, a desperate drive, ending with the pain of loss. It happened so fast, we miss our sweet Yorkie so much. Deep heartbreak, just a few days before a Christmas I now couldn’t wait to be over, so I could get back to a “normal” routine. But a steady stream of… Continue Reading

I’ll Meet You There

To agree to disagree, a staple of society and democracy. To do nothing about the root of these disagreements, however, is irresponsible and unproductive. Given solutions to issues are infrequently built on black and white answers, compromise is often the only silver bullet to resolution. How we’ve gotten to the level of divisiveness that all but takes compromise off… Continue Reading

Reinvent the Wheel

Ever heard or said, “no need to reinvent the wheel”? In concept this makes sense, but in context, perhaps worth a second thought? The wheel enables much, from transporting things that would otherwise be carried to automation with gears, wheels on axels make life easier. Might be a stretch, but if i look at the wheel metaphorically, compared to… Continue Reading

Patron

It’s not often enough I take time to ponder the meaning of a word. To understand its proper use when communicating, perhaps more meaningfully, to contemplate resulting thought patterns. Some differences in definitions for the same word are slight, others noticeably measurable. In the case of the word “patron” (and I’m not talking tequila), one might overtly support the arts or… Continue Reading

Different Things

Who doesn’t feel conflicted, if only now and then? For weeks I’ve been looking up out of a pit, staring at stars painting the night sky, keeping the cries muffled, which only makes them louder. Balancing reality and dreams I’ve put on on the back burner, it’s time to formulate a path from my comfort zone to uncharted territory.… Continue Reading

Lesson | Lessen

Seems the more I live, the more I appreciate simplicity. From art to food to how I approach every day. The first chapter of “On Writing Well” (W. Zinsser) focuses on simplicity, and been resonating within my thought process for a couple of weeks now. Consciously eliminating clutter, whether writing or relaxing, is rewarding. It’s amazing how well… Continue Reading

Fresh Start

It’s time to cook up a new web presence, not because I’m all that motivated… let’s just say “technical difficulties” from aging software is forcing my hand. But hey, it’s a new season, Fall, and a new month, October, so why not! Life is full, so much better than I deserve. We’re well into our 2nd… Continue Reading